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Awani
03-31-2016, 06:45 PM
We have an Ayahuasca report (http://forum.alchemyforums.com/showthread.php?1298-Ayahuasca-Report) thread as well as an Iboga report (http://forum.alchemyforums.com/showthread.php?3386-Iboga-Report) thread... so why not one about smokable DMT?

All stories in this thread is about SWIM (http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=swim).

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Easter Resurrection Ceremony

Due to personal sorrow/despair a lot of the healing I had gained - during my last visit/initiation with Ayahuasca in Peru - was lost... and I don't have the time or means to travel to Peru at the moment so I decided to smoke DMT in order to re-connect with the healing and wisdom of my initiations in the Amazon. I have had the DMT for about a month... so I have really been looking forward to it.

What better time than Easter to start this work in a ritual (http://forum.alchemyforums.com/showthread.php?4662-The-Importance-of-Ritual) format.


First Ceremony

I had decided to do my first ceremony inside because I wanted to test the medicine in a more safe environment. Because the most part of our house is being renovated our space is limited. We have a pretty big bathroom (we even have a small seating area in there) so that is where I decided to have my first ceremony.

I did it three times increasing the dosage each time. It went well and the funny thing is that "the trip" was toilet themed. All the creatures I met carried buckets, mops and other tools of toilets. So it was pretty funny.

That night I went to bed extremely cold... I gained a fever (I checked so I know it is not imagined). I am never sick.

I honestly think I was going through a purge brought on by the instructions given to my body when my mind was in a higher state. The next day the fever/illness was gone.

And I rested for another day before the next ceremony.


Second Ceremony

I did this one outside at night, amongst the trees. It was a calm evening. I had a wonderful experience. I smoked two times. At the end of the experience I remained seated and listened to a few more icaros (healing songs) just out of pleasure and suddenly I began crying. I cried violently for a long time.

Another purge, this time I was purging with tears and snot.

I rested another day before the last and final ceremony.


Third Ceremony

It was a starry night. So beautiful. I had an excellent journey although brief. It was the culmination of the wisdom and mostly "strength" that I have been given... it was a final nail in the coffin for what I needed to feel and know.

I felt that all those things that had deteriorated was now restored.

I only smoked one time.


Closing remarks

I have not written so much about the actual "journey" or the "visions" because when you smoke DMT it all happens so fast... not only that it is impossible to put into words so it is better to just let it be. If you wonder what it is like there is a pretty easy way for you to find that out. ;)

It was wonderful to do it in the forest. The shamans and spirits of the natural world always come forth and surround me. Love it.

What I really think is interesting is that it works. If you use these sacred substances with the right intention and techniques true magic happens (see The Importance of Ritual (http://forum.alchemyforums.com/showthread.php?4662-The-Importance-of-Ritual) ). I did not expect to go through so much after each ceremony as I did.

When smoking DMT it also has a funny way of making me want to take a shit... it usually happens as soon as the idea is formed that "soon I will smoke". Everytime. So weird. Shitting is also a purge.

In the Amazon many folks don't use the name Ayahuasca, they call it La Purga (The Purge).

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Extra information

I noticed a headache after the first ceremony (and I have noticed this on previous smoked DMT occasions). So I started each ceremony after that by drinking two glasses of water and I did not suffer any headaches anymore. So be extra hydrated when smoking DMT in my humble experience.

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Ghislain
03-31-2016, 07:15 PM
When smoking DMT it also has a funny way of making me want to take a shit... it usually happens as soon as the idea is formed that "soon I will smoke". Everytime. So weird. Shitting is also a purge.

From SWIM (http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=swim)


Dev I have noticed this too, I couldn't understand how my body knows beforehand, it's good to get an affirmation that I'm not mad from another source ;)

I have not been doing the DMT in ritual as most of the time I am just trying out a new batch, but I find I have had the same experience each time and this is that everything around me is replaced with pristine new items...it is really surreal as I know these items and they are far from new. It doesn't matter how close an inspection I give them they are perfect.

This experience was inside, so I wondered what it would look like outside. The whole place looked like a Lego town...you have to see it to understand.

I think it shows I really need the ritual.

Ghislain

Awani
03-31-2016, 07:39 PM
I have also noticed that when the "journey" is over and I turn on the light, or go back into the house, everything is sharper. I wear glasses but I don't need them for 5 minutes after the "trip". Everything is clear and sharp. Perhaps this is a substance that should be investigated by science to cure bad eye sight?

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Andro
03-31-2016, 08:10 PM
Perhaps this is a substance that should be investigated by science to cure bad eye sight?

Or perhaps we just leave science out of it and learn to produce it internally in our brains, constantly and (eventually) autonomously :cool: ... so that the lucid-dreamlike nature of perceived reality becomes more flexible to us, even all the way 'down' to the 'slow' physical vibration... Theoretically, if we 'wake up' while physically awake, we can fly... and the 'sky' is not the limit, but only the beginning!


I am never sick.

It is claimed by some schools of thought that occasionally 'getting sick' is actually a mechanism of the body to heal itself.

If you just naturally never get sick, I guess it's fine... But I would think/theorize that if we actively resist occasionally getting a bit sick (mentally, supplements, etc...) we could be delaying a 'bigger sickness' that would otherwise be released in 'low dosages' with every little cold we get, when our immune systems get something to practice on and get stronger. Just a theory...

Awani
03-31-2016, 08:13 PM
Or perhaps we just leave science out of it and learn to produce it internally in our brains, constantly and (eventually) autonomously :cool: ... so that the lucid-dreamlike nature of perceived reality becomes more flexible to us, even all the way 'down' to the 'slow' physical vibration... Theoretically, if we 'wake up' while physically awake, we can fly... and the 'sky' is not the limit, but only the beginning!

I am talking about an easy possible "cure" for normal poor uneducated folks enslaved in the factory rat race. Not someone on a shamanic spiritual path of illusionary-reality mastery. Your above statement is what is the best future, but Utopia is usually a Dystopia. I only agree with what you said on an individual level, but the science statement was meant for everyone - and in this case I do not agree. What you say is simply probably not possible... ever! ;)

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Andro
03-31-2016, 08:22 PM
What you say is simply probably not possible... ever! ;)

Quoth Justin Bieber (your favorite!):


"I will never say never" ♫♪♬...

But yes, science recognizing its medicinal uses would be a nice step... Like what is happening with Medical Cannabis these days... so it's not THAT far-fetched...

Awani
03-31-2016, 08:25 PM
It is claimed by some schools of thought that occasionally 'getting sick' is actually a mechanism of the body to heal itself.

If you just naturally never get sick, I guess it's fine... But I would think/theorize that if we actively resist occasionally getting a bit sick (mentally, supplements, etc...) we could be delaying a 'bigger sickness' that would otherwise be released in 'low dosages' with every little cold we get, when our immune systems get something to practice on and get stronger. Just a theory...

In theory I agree, but - speaking from direct experience only - it seems people who get a "bigger" sickness have usually been "sick" all their lives. Getting the flu or the cold (or even a fever) several times a year is a sign for me of a weak body. I like to view this "getting sick" as purging, and this I do on a fairly regular basis (almost every year). Add to that when I do "feel" I am about to get sick it usually is expelled through a cold sore.

Although I am sure I will get a BIG sickness one day. Anything else would be ridiculous. It is also better to live a life "free of easily avoidable suffering" like getting sick, and go out with a big cancer bang... rather than the opposite. But I see these people who "release small dosages" of this "big" disease every day at work. These people are not going to avoid something in the future. They are weak and will live their life in such a weak way till they die.

In shamanic tradition you start sick and end healed. And in-between you Purge.

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I am never sick.

The reason I stated this was to prove that the "magic" of the ceremony worked. It triggered a Purge.

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Andro
04-01-2016, 06:05 AM
Although I am sure I will get a BIG sickness one day. Anything else would be ridiculous [...] go out with a big cancer bang...

I detect a flair for the dramatic that I really didn't suspect was there... Welcome to the club!

BTW, cancer is also said to be a healing mechanism, when the more minor ones have not succeeded... and you can also heal cancer with Aya... so you're fucked... you're gonna live forever :)


But I see these people who "release small dosages" of this "big" disease every day at work. These people are not going to avoid something in the future. They are weak and will live their life in such a weak way till they die.

I know people who are 'sick' all the time until they die in their late 90's... And health freaks who die from heart attacks in their 30's in the middle of jogging :)


In shamanic tradition you start sick and end healed. And in-between you Purge.

I wonder if this applies to the Universe/Creation as well :)
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I thought about what I wrote before on this thread...

If we manage to 'wake up' from the dream of being physically awake WHILE being 'physically awake', we have no need for any elixirs or preparations, not even 'The Philosopher's Stone'.

What if AWAKENING means just that? Just simply 'waking up'... nothing more...

Awani
04-01-2016, 09:20 AM
The Stone is not physical. IMO. So yes.

But it is very difficult. Imagine playing a videogame with split screen (car racing) and manage to drive the car looking at both screens at the same time. Or imagine driving a real car wearing a VR headset at the same time.

There has to be some high level of skill to be able to see both worlds at the same time and not be screwed.

I consider myself awake, and I am aware of the "two worlds" all the time but my attention is only in one of them at any given moment (unless I need to do some temporary magic a la mind control or telepathy etc). To be fully into both at the same time would be difficult.

I also think it is a waste of time. We are in this world for a reason. If we keep looking at what is around the corner we loose the power of now, which is a wonderful state to be in. A vacation to other realms is healthy, but to long for it is not healtht I don't think.

It's like slavery. It is easier to escape enslavement if one first embrace it.

It is like you say, "drink the wine..." it goes for the self as well.

Simple life is the highest form. Eat, sleep, love, shit, die. That is it. No need for anything else. To find peace in that simplicity is true power. There is a high form of bliss in animals. They (as far as I know) lack worry, stress and time. In a sense we might have to be a human before we can be animal. ;)


Just simply 'waking up'... nothing more...

Anyway in conclusion yes it is that simple (as waking up). In fact in my experience true magic, wisdom and truth of the universe and alchemy etc is all extremly simple.

Only humans need a meeting and the invention of language so the meeting can be written down, so people don't shit in the water they need to drink.

We have perfected the art of making things complicated.

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Andro
04-01-2016, 10:15 AM
Imagine playing a video game with split screen (car racing) and manage to drive the car looking at both screens at the same time.
Or imagine driving a real car wearing a VR headset at the same time.

This is not what I'm talking about (split perception).


There has to be some high level of skill to be able to see both worlds at the same time and not be screwed. [...] I am aware of the "two worlds" all the time.

I'm not talking about two worlds, or one, or any. They're all dream worlds. I'm talking about 'waking up'. I haven't expressed myself well enough in the previous post.


A vacation to other realms is healthy.

I'm not talking about other realms either. Eventually, they're all just more of the same, if one transcends perception of form.


We are in this world for a reason.

I agree. But we might have somewhat different perspectives on what that reason may be :)

Awani
04-01-2016, 10:32 AM
I know what you are talking about, but the reason I use "two worlds", "realms" and such language is because it is hard to explain which "thing" I am talking about.

Waking up is death.

Not the physical death that we will meet one day. But the true death.

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Salazius
04-01-2016, 12:03 PM
It is a good thing you made tests before the Amsterdam Meeting.
It seems very powerful.

Ghislain
04-01-2016, 02:51 PM
It is a good thing you made tests before the Amsterdam Meeting.
It seems very powerful.

Yes I can agree with that ;)

There can only be one primary reality...a little bit of an oxymoron as saying only one and primary suggests a secondary.

I believe the true reality can only be found in the quantum world as beyond this the complexity is too great.

The explanation of the big bang scientist expound the presence of intense heat at this point in time, but in relation to what? The suns rays are not hot until they fall upon an object.
The space between us and the sun is extremely cold, devoid of heat.

I would reconsider that phenomena in the big bang to be the presence of the vast quantity of quantum particles ready to create the Universe as we perceive it. The data could easily be transmitted using quantum entanglement (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quantum_entanglement).

The matter it produces is just a memory state like the storage medium in any computer...as our bodies are just this we are aware of the other memory that is stored.
I.E. an apple, a mountain, water...etc.

I believe that the film "Tron" is closer to the truth than most would like to think.

DMT gives you a glimpse of this nature IMO at this present moment.

Ghislain

Awani
04-01-2016, 03:07 PM
It is a good thing you made tests before the Amsterdam Meeting.
It seems very powerful.

Yes. I take this stuff very seriously. Society life is the joke. Lol.

Yes Tron is spot on. God is the "user". ;)

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Awani
04-20-2016, 10:21 AM
Yesterday was Bicycle Day (http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Bicycle+Day), it was also kind of a full moon. For me the days before (and the days after) a full moon are just as powerful as the actual day. So I decided to perform a little ceremony.

So far all the DMT smoking ceremonies I have done have all been great, and somewhat weak. Even when they were strong, they still were weak. All I needed to do was open my eyes, and behind the "realm" I could easily see where I "really" was. And at no time... not even on Iboga or Ayahuasca... have I ever not been aware of where my physical body is. Even the time on ayahuasca when I thought I had died I could still see and touch my body (I just thought I touched and saw it as a ghost).

But last night something very novel (for me) happened. And I blame it on the Moon. Everytime I do a psychedelic ceremony in conjunction with the full moon things always go dark, deep or become extremely intense. Last night was no different.

It is as usual hard to put into language, but basically I lost my physical self. I lost where I was. Eyes open. Eyes closed. No difference. My conscious mind was 100 % completely detached from my body... and my body was nowhere to be found. This of course caused me a bit of panic. I had not expected this to happen. And as I have learned through the years: what can you really expect?

I knew that I must focus, silence my mind and not panic... but anyone who has been in a similar situation knows that that is easier said than done when the word "panic" has entered the mind.

On my right side a sort of being/creature was working on me in what - to me - seemed like some shamanic movements. I knew I was having a complete boundary dissolving experience. A leaving the body experience. I could not tell even if I was breathing or not.

I was sitting outside, and I couldn't even tell if I was outside or inside. I had crossed over fully.

I desperately tried to find something to hang on to. To ground me. There were sacred medicine songs playing in the background, but I couldn't even hear them. As if I had no body, no nose, no eyes... nothing. I was pure spirit. I recall trying to touch my body and feeling nothing there. Not even sure I had made my arms move.

It felt like forever. I knew the journey is brief. But it did not feel brief at all.

Although I was having, what might sound like a "bad" trip (there is no such thing), it was an amazing experience. Even whilst I was having it I knew that I had broken through, and that I had caved in for not only amazement but from shock. I also knew that this would be over soon.

But just as it is difficult to question the reality we are in now, difficult to question that it is not real and permanent... just as difficult was it for me to question this "other" realm I found myself in. It was so real. It was beautiful. It was wonderful. I just had problem coping with the complete loss of my physical self.

Finally I found my water bottle. Ah... an "object"... I started to land. To come back down... re-enter our realm. I started to gag, as if I was going to vomit. I had just climbed of a very intense roller coaster... but eventually I didn't vomit.

Then I sat for a while thinking, still tripping... but much more mild. I was back in my body. I saw some more things of personal importance. And the forest and the moon looked beautiful.

Truly a Bicycle Day to remember!

Next time I am in this situation I will not panic. I am certain. You see practice makes perfect, and now when I know what it feels to not have a body it will be much easier to experience this again. In fact I look forward to it! ;)

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JinRaTensei
04-20-2016, 10:55 AM
wow how awesome! since I am a absolute novice I wonīt even try to have any insight to your experience but am looking forward hearing from your future advances and if with training you really are able to "cross over" more completely,I believe so.
Just a little sidenote, probably no connection and the time will mostly not overlap but you didnīt happen to have that experience around 21:30-22:00 pm? was watching the moon in the darkness of a forest and had the strange thought that dev maybe right now is visiting a dreamstate and finding the answer towards his childhood pan/faun meeting.strange thought in the sense that I was thinking about completely other things ^^

Awani
04-20-2016, 11:32 AM
LOL it was about midnight, but mentally I was already starting the ceremony.

I have broken through many times before, but I always had my body with me. That was the major difference this time.

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Andro
04-20-2016, 11:53 AM
My conscious mind was 100 % completely detached from my body... and my body was nowhere to be found.

Good riddance :)



This of course caused me a bit of panic.

I had lots of panic during my first body-less explorations around age 22, especially the panic of not being able to return to the body. I eventually discovered that thinking about moving a physical part of the (physical) body would 'snap' me back into the body instantly. Ironically perhaps, the body part that work best for this is the Big Toe (http://forum.alchemyforums.com/showthread.php?3897-Tom-s-Big-TOE). Imagine moving your physical Big Toe and you'll be back in the body in a split second. It's an almost fail-safe method, but I have no idea if it would work when/if taking an auxiliary substance to induce the state. Maybe you could try it...

Oh, have I just done the 'Leo' thing, saying 'how it is for me'? LOL :)


I was back in my body.

My sincere condolences :p


Truly a Bicycle Day to remember!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWJ8_B9BVxo

:o

Awani
04-20-2016, 12:39 PM
saying 'how it is for me'?

Well what else can one really say? :)

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Awani
05-28-2016, 08:27 PM
On the 28th of May [today] 1963, Timothy Leary's associate Richard Alpert (now Ram Dass) was fired from Harvard for breaking one of the restrictions placed onto his research there: that he not provide psychedelics to undergraduates.

I had already decided to perform a ceremony tonight... and I noticed the above in my Facebook feed earlier today. The planets align. LOL.

And just by posting this post I feel I need to take a shit... it's so weird...


When smoking DMT it also has a funny way of making me want to take a shit... it usually happens as soon as the idea is formed that "soon I will smoke". Everytime.


I have noticed this too, I couldn't understand how my body knows beforehand, it's good to get an affirmation that I'm not mad from another source...

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elixirmixer
06-13-2016, 12:46 PM
So, I wasn't sure if you guys were much for the soul traveling, but it appears you are!! Can someone define a reasonable process for leaving the body? I would like to give it another crack.

I'm getting clostriphobic.

elixirmixer
06-13-2016, 01:18 PM
Every time I know I'm going to take drugs, I need to shit.
Dual reality perception would be so epic, but first, you would have to study the female mind and master the art of multitasking.
Also I understand what's Andro's coming from with the 'wake up' thing. I always think about that when I read the emerald tablet 'obtain the Glory of the whole universe'.
I do believe that if we could 'wake up'we could fly. But there are good reasons it doesn't happen easily. I remember 'waking' in a lucid dream, I turned to a tree, and sapped all it's life out, into my own body, to charge me up for flying. I killed the tree just for the sale of a thrill ride, when in waking life I'm not sure I would be willing to have made that exchange.

As far as "primary" existence, this is subjective. There are deities floating around out there, in there own realms, whom I bet find their world's just as real as ours.

Some lucid dreams I have had felt A LOT more real, them my waking life, the body can dull things I believe.

I would love to learn how to shift world's without the drugs. Please someone teach me how :D
Otherwise ill just have to make the stuff :D

What do you think Andro, would 'awaken' someone to that level? I believe you would need all chakras pumping at full steam, heaps of built up sexual energy, clear meridian's, a thoroughly cleansed subconscious, and finally, a restructured belief system that was specifically taught to have no limitation to the energy their body could hould.

Awani
06-13-2016, 02:34 PM
I personally do not see it as drugs, unless we agree that everything is a drug (which it is).

Also I do not think it is a good idea to put demands on these substances. They have an agenda all on their own. So if your goal is just to have OBE then you might, but probably not.

My only suggestion is to go into it with respect and good intentions. Doing things as heavy as DMT without any shamanic practices is in my humble opinion both dangerous and/or a waste of time. I am not going to tell anyone how to do things, but you have been warned.

Alchemy without soul travelling, as you say, is not alchemy worthy of my attention.

As for waking up I think there are many levels to this, and some are practically impossible to achieve in this life (reserved perhaps for the very few). And in a way it is not necessary to wake up on all levels, because if you did why would you be here in the first place unless you are some intergalactic emissary?

I am certain you can 'fly' without help, but since there are airplanes why wait 10 years (of training) to fly to China when you can just book a ticket with your phone today? ;)

Life is short and no path is better than the next, but I rather be where I am now thanks to 7 years of working with plants than reach the point I am at now 20 years from now (or perhaps never).

It is not for everyone, but for me the Teacher Plants have been a true miracle... what I have shared openly about my own experiences is only the tip of the iceberg.

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elixirmixer
06-13-2016, 10:47 PM
May I ask you dev, what the purpose of the soul travel is? What does it accomplish? Or what do you 'do' while your there? I always sought a way into the astral plane's, hoping to visit some kind of astral city, or obtain some rare astral item that my soul could retain...
It seems to me though, and correct me if I'm wrong, that you just 'there for the ride' and that it's the experience itself that your looking to obtain. Is that true?

elixirmixer
06-13-2016, 10:57 PM
I have had one experience with DMT, and your right, I was looking for OBE and I didnt get it. Instead, I saw strange layers of light fields, different layers had different colours and all the layers of the rainbow were there, and certain layers, say for example 'the yellow layer' would be wrapped around people in a particular area, say, around their neck, or a different colour would be around their wrist. But the same colours were connected to each persons same body part.

As I observed the people (we were at burning seed which is the Aussie version of burning man festival in America) I came to a realisation, that when people moved, it wasn't by their choice, it wasn't a consciousness act of free will, but rather an impulse, an instance driven by these light fields... it was a wonder to behold yet also quite sad, seeing my human friends being subordinate to an unknown force, without the slightest bit of a
Awareness to it....

Then I threw up, but it felt good. The purge feeling...

Awani
06-14-2016, 06:55 AM
I do it for personal healing and transformation into a higher state of being. I do it to understand the world and to merge with the Divine Mystery. I do it because my "religion" is shamanism. But I am here for the ride. My experience is the only thing that is.

One question regarding your own experience: did you do it in the dark?

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elixirmixer
06-14-2016, 11:58 AM
No I didn't.... I'm guessing that I should have. The experience deffinatly was not as potent as the experience's I have read about. It was also given to me by some friends and I'm not sure of the dosage.

Awani
06-14-2016, 01:11 PM
Well if it was Changa then it is weaker from my understanding, but if it was pure DMT then two things matter:

1. how long you hold the smoke in your lungs
2. how many times you can smoke... more than 2 is difficult to do without help

And finally the most important is to do it with respect and treat it as a ritual. I mean this is not the law, but if you want to go far (and use it as a tool for self-improvement and transformation) then using shamanic techniques is the only way to go.

And for God's sake do it in the DARK!!! Pitch-black. :)

I never do any psychedelics alone... but one time I did and I got a bit scared. What did I do to stop being scared? I turned on the light!!! Doing psychedelics during the day, or in non-darkness, is like pissing in the wind. In my humble opinion.

I wonder why most shamanic cultures have their rituals at night? ;)

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Awani
08-08-2016, 10:42 PM
This is not a report of a recent journey... just an attempt at conveying some emotions regarding "doing" it. But every word is true and based on personal experience...

The first thing that happens is fear, an intense fear.

The more I have done it the more fear I experience. This is one of those things when experience is more of a handicap than being a novice is, because I know what is coming.

My hands tremble as I hold the pipe. I attempt to light it a few times, but I chicken out. I try to calm down. I know that being calm is the best state to be in, but when you are standing in an airplane, with the door open, and no parachute on your back and you are about to jump… well you would tremble a bit.

The only comfort I have is the fact that in ten minutes everything will be back to “normal”, but I also know that ten minutes can be an extremely long time.

Another part of the fear is the fact that I am scared to do it, but that I also know that I will. When I am sitting there committed I never back out. So even if it frightens me I know that I will take the leap. So it is not a question of “if” the hammer is coming down, but “when” will it? When will I light the pipe?

Eventually the internal debate of trying to find a reason not to do it is over and I let it rip, but it is not so easy to smoke… I only have a few seconds to successfully manage to get at least two massive hits into my lungs, but the nervousness of doing this makes it a feat on its own. Also the fact that once the first hit is done it all comes on so quickly, and in such an intense fashion, that I question the sanity of doing yet another hit.

And if I manage to do the second hit there is a terrifying moment right after where I question if that really was the right thing to do, and an even more terrifying moment when I know that it doesn’t matter what I think was right or not right - because it is too fucking late to do anything about it now. There is no parachute. No way to step off the train. It is going and all I can do is hang on to my socks and hope I can survive the next ten minutes.

I will survive. I know it is safe. But knowing such things is irrelevant when I am inside the experience. The experience itself is so overwhelming that fear takes over completely.

I hear a sound, like breaking through the sound barrier. A chrysanthemum-like geometrical pattern in constant transformational loops sparkle all the colors of a diamond-encrusted rainbow… it approaches like a speeding train and explode in my mind.

I’m back.

http://i60.photobucket.com/albums/h18/deviadah/forum/HigherSelf_zpsjdegzwwc.gif

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JinRaTensei
08-10-2016, 09:20 PM
What a cliffhanger XD, does the report end there?

Loki Morningstar
08-10-2016, 10:59 PM
Thanks for sharing dev. These were really fun to read. And informative too. :)

Awani
08-11-2016, 12:14 AM
What a cliffhanger XD, does the report end there?

Actually this is just a description of what goes on in the pre-stages for me. It is much easier to describe these moments than what happens after... it is beyond words. LOL. But I have done a few here and there in the forum (and in this thread)... but they do little justice to the real thing.


Thanks for sharing dev. These were really fun to read. And informative too. :)

Thanks.

:cool:

Awani
03-11-2017, 01:15 AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4d8JgpPWrT0

:cool:

Quarrox
03-12-2017, 08:49 PM
A friend of mine is planning to extract DMT crystals at home, with reed as raw material.

edit: reed, not reef